30/06/2026
Surely I should be in the swing of it all by now!?
What the @!£$% is happening to me?
I couldn’t face the thought of going back with my tail between my legs for a coach to teach me about self-worth and self-confidence. Again. To be taught about marketing and money mindset. Again.
The rebel in me was annoyed like Disgust from Inside Out.
Underneath the anger were the same old layers of shame and self-judgement or was this a fresh layer to peel back and approach a bit differently this time?
Part of me couldn’t be bothered.
My usual oomph and curiosity had left the building and I just wanted it to be over. I’d had a good run! It was time to find a ‘proper’ job (yeah that ol’ chestnut) and I don’t think there’s any shame in getting other income that’s more stable than what self-employment can offer. In many situations it makes sense.
I googled… perimenopause, menopause, I’m self-employed and struggling.
There were a few blog posts but mostly support for employees and how to advocate to your boss in the workplace.
No community-focused support systems existed for this even though the thought of joining another Facebook or WhatsApp group made me want to retreat back under my rock even more.
Maybe a membership with a website I could log into at my own pace? Yet, I’d been burnt getting involved in spaces with ‘guru’ type characters who claim to have all the prescriptive answers where you’re taught one limited blueprint.
I felt the pull to make something available to say ‘hey, this is a thing!’ And I dreamt of chatting with humans who understood in a non-hierarchical space that didn’t reduce our businesses and bodies to a single formula whilst regurgitating the same old stuff that ignores the realities of most people.
AND not another expensive subscription for folks to fork out for and not get the best use out of - another layer of pressure and disappointment. Groan!
There’s SO much more to come on all this but for now, as of today, there IS a website that exists for self-employed people who may benefit from connection and support whilst going through any stage of menopause.
I made it with the support of 181 Crowdfunde