11/10/2025
Today is and we have this stunning and honest offering from L who is part of the DC community. As you read this, what do you think and feel? What interests you? What moves you?
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I've lived a full and varied life and there have been so many people along the way who have made it beautiful, joyous and worth the ride.
I needed you to make it clear
I needed you to know
I needed you to have less fear
I needed you to say so
I also lived a life afraid of being myself. I've lived a life where I always assumed I was in the wrong. One thing that came out of that was that it took so long for me to come out as bisexual.
I needed you to make it clear
I needed you to know
I needed you to have less fear
I needed you to say so
Over the years, lots of people have come in and out of my life for loads of reasons. That's part of life in lots of ways. The people I mourn the most are the ones I lost around that time.
I needed you to make it clear
I needed you to know
I needed you to have less fear
I needed you to say so
It's been over five years now, and I still feel those emotional wounds as if they were fresh and raw. I reverted to my internal working model of what I, others, and the world was like. I believed I'd always be unloveable.
I needed you to make it clear
I needed you to know
I needed you to have less fear
I needed you to say so
So I withdrew from folks if I couldnt be sure I'd feel safe, be accepted and live freely. I didn't yet have the words, or the confidence, to ask. I didn't have the energy to be a debate.
I needed you to make it clear
I needed you to know
I needed you to have less fear
I needed you to say so
Turns out that some people would've been delighted for me. Others still can't accept who I am and that might never change. I'm still wary when I meet new people, even though I've grown in confidence, because rejection always, always takes a toll.
I needed you to make it clear
I needed you to know
I needed you to have less fear
I needed you to say so
I now know that it's really important to be extra visibly, audible, tangibly inclusive. It should be a given, but for people who have known exclusion, hurt and fear, that's not our lived reality.
I needed you to make it clear
I needed you to know
I needed you to have less fear
I needed you to say so
I have realised that I have not always met my own ideals so I'm trying to do better as well. But if the cost for you is low and you don't find it emotionally risky to do so, please be loudly inclusive and don't wait to be asked.
I needed you to make it clear
I needed you to know
I needed you to have less fear
I needed you to say so