05/09/2026
Day no 5 of Little Heartbeats international awareness month is in memory of my daughter Sinead who I lost to the complications of PPROM, and to my niece Dervla. over the years it has been hard, further baby losses, breast abscess, hole in my breast due to sepsis infection that followed
It’s been a challenge to say the least
But this time last year my beautiful niece Dervla died by su***de
Then her mum (my sister) suffered life changing injuries, not only did she lose her daughter, her only child. But a drunk driver drove into her. Very devastating, I struggle to know the right things to say
Some how I had to be brave and support pregnant women through Pprom while grieving and to be honest her death has been so hard because I feel like I’ve helped hundreds if not thousands of women through their darkness times, but my brain wonders, the but ifs, I still can’t stop crying,
I wonder had I stopped to realise my precious niece was struggling
Today my niece would be 29, she died a week before her birthday,
The 5th September is her birthday and she be forever 27 years old
I still remember her funeral, the church was full of her friends and family who are deeply impacted
Mental health during and after pregnancy does impact women, sadly my niece suffered a baby loss a year or so before her death
It’s very, very sad 😢 and it’s totally broken me, but I known the work I do is important, I hope I can do better
Sending love to every woman impacted by Pprom and anyone feeling suicidal reach out and keeping asking for mental health support, big hugs to my sister, send her some love, and one last thing, promise me you won’t give up
I hope our Dervla is dancing with my Sinead, my brother Declan and my mum
Life is very short, life is very precious #
Until you lost some one, you will never know how much this hurts
Sometimes sorry is not enough
Sending you lots of love ❤️
Note; Leaving the number in the photos, for the Samaritans if you are feeling dark
