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20/05/2026

Amazing how a good nights sleep can get your mind back on track. Suffice it to say I'm more than back on track. I feel like I have purged myself. It's a great feeling. Maybe I needed one last really down day to finish that all off. I'm done with kicking myself.

Yep. That's it.
19/05/2026

Yep. That's it.

19/05/2026

Really struggling very badly today. There's been a constant hole in my soul since my ex and I divorced and I've had to carry the burden of knowing it was largely my own foolishness, inattentiveness and frankly selfishness that caused it and though I wanted to make it better she ran out of patience. I haven't been depressed in a long time though. Ive been sorting myself out and facing up to my faults. The feeling of having failed my ex after so long together is there most of the time but I usually just get on with things and I'm OK and i put on my public face and nobody knows im stiĺl heartbroken. Today is awful. I slept about ten minutes last night and I'm utterly exhausted. What I need is my ex partners forgiveness, I know she is over loving me, but I can't forgive myself for how I let her down. It's not going to happen and I cant ask her for it. Im not her concern now and i dont blame her for that. I know this in my head. Usually I try to be ruled by my head. But unfortunately my heart won't be persuaded and its winning the battle. I know time heals and I should just put all this behind me as she has obviously done but it's not working. I thought I was being very mature as well about her having a new partner and I am really. I'm genuinely happy for her. She must have been so so unhappy to break up our marriage I could punch myself in the face for it sometimes as she deserved so much better. So she deserves a chance again at happiness and love. But it's also bloody killing me. I guess this too will pass. But if time heals it's taking its bloody time about it! Though at least I'm not feeling this crushing longing everyday as I was for the first year or so. So that's progress. So I tell myself this is just a set back on my journey in learning to live without her. I refuse to be emotionally crippled by this. Just writing this helps a little sorting my thoughts out. Tomorrow is another day.

19/05/2026
18/05/2026

It's amazing how you can make changes to your life when you put your mind to it. I used to be pretty disorganised with money. I had savings and I knew I had enough to fund a good retirement for my then wife and I. But I couldn't have told you how much as I paid it little attention. I started to try to get things put in order and was hoping to focus on us starting to enjoy our savings. My timing was hopeless of course as I discovered about the same time that my wife was intending to end our marriage. A quick divorce at her request followed and my plans were shot down in flames. But I decided that I still had to sort out my finances and I really set about it. Before I just let savings sort of sit unattended and I didn't even know what I had. Now in more challenging circumstances I set about organising myself. Fast forward a few years and I've taught myself how to invest and how to trade stocks shares and bonds etc and I now make myself almost as much from this in a year as I get in a pension. What a turn around its been. But strangely I'm also less focused on money. Which seems an odd combination. I think its because knowing that I have it sorted and working for me means I end up worrying about it less. Weird. It took the pain, distress and financial upheaval of my divorce to make this change. My approach had been shifting anyway before that towards wanting my partner and I to enjoy the savings I had made but the divorce finished those plans and sort of kicked me into a new and really determined mind set. I sorted a few things out about myself and this was one of them. Divorce leaves many men struggling financially but because I gave myself a kick in the pants I've actually ended up doing quite well - eventually, and with a lot of learning now under my belt. Money still really doesn't mean much to me but its better having it than not having it and it's much better when you have it properly organised. Never give up.

Saw my ex recently with her new partner. My feelings for her probably won't ever change. But it was strange. My first th...
18/05/2026

Saw my ex recently with her new partner. My feelings for her probably won't ever change. But it was strange. My first thought wasn't jealousy or sadness. I felt happy for her. She is a really wonderful person and she deserves happiness. I really just felt pleased that she has found someone to really love. Just because you can't have what you want in life doesn't mean you have to wish ill on others or resent them. If love is genuine then I think ultimately it is about wanting the best for the other person. So if she has had to go through all this to find the person that is right for her who am I to resent it? I am shocked by my own maturity. This will never do! Lol.

I've never been slow to apologise and admit my mistakes. It's not just an apology that matters though. You have to fix t...
18/05/2026

I've never been slow to apologise and admit my mistakes. It's not just an apology that matters though. You have to fix the mistake, not let it fester and do your best not to repeat the mistake.

One of the hardest truths to accept in life is that not everyone chooses growth.🤔

Some people go through life without ever truly reflecting on their actions. They repeat the same patterns, make the same mistakes, and avoid taking responsibility for the harm they cause. Instead of learning, they defend. Instead of changing, they justify. Instead of acknowledging fault, they shift blame.

This is not always because they cannot grow, but often because they choose not to.

And that realization can be painful.

You may wait for an apology that never comes. You may hope for change that never arrives. You may expect accountability that they are not willing to give. But the truth is, not everyone has the capacity or willingness to confront their own behavior.

Understanding this can save you from unnecessary disappointment.

Not every situation will be resolved through closure from others. Sometimes, your peace comes from acceptance, not apology. From distance, not resolution. From letting go, not holding on.

Growth is a choice, and when someone refuses to choose it, you cannot do it for them.

“What you have to understand is that some people never really grow. They never learn their lesson. They never recognize their mistakes, they never acknowledge their faults, and they never admit they were in the wrong.
You will never receive an apology from them, and you will never see their behavior change.”

18/05/2026

I agree with this. It is important to try to grow and particularly to learn from your mistakes. We all make mistakes. The problem is not confronting your own mistakes, not growing as a person.

I love this and felt this way.
18/05/2026

I love this and felt this way.

A favourite ❤️❤️ “ I’ll still be loving you”

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