13/06/2025
🫶🏻💛What caused me not to believe in myself?
Well one of those things was comparison.
No. Not the usual way we think of it.
I’m talking about comparing my nystagmus (rapidly moving eyes) to the girls eyes around me whose eyes didn’t shake.
I’m talking about comparing my crossed (strabismus) eyes to the girls around me whose eyes weren’t, in my opinion, funny looking like mine.
I’m talking about comparing my low vision to other girls whose vision was better.
I’m talking about comparing my fair white skin to those who had pigment.
I’m talking about comparing my sandy blonde hair to the girls around me who had what I considered to be normal colored hair.
I compared every ounce of myself and always came up short.
Why? Because I didn’t like who I was and that was because I didn’t know who I was.
So. I went searching in all the wrong places and things to find Janica. I was so lost. Seems like every day was a day that I wasn’t happy. I was miserable. I was so broken because I didn’t like who I was.
Then finally. One day, I looked up and saw Jesus. He had been standing there the whole time, I was just too blind (spiritually) to see Him.
As I opened up my heart, God filled me with everything I needed to be me and I didn’t have to change my hair, skin, or eyes (the things I had been trying to do) at all.
God helped me see my potential and the beauty of albinism and since that day, I haven’t looked back, and I encourage you to do the same.
Stop comparing and begin embracing who you are as a woman or little girl with albinism. Know that God makes no mistakes and that you are amazing exactly the way that you are!
Always remember that you and I, me and you—we were born this way on purpose, for a purpose, and that is to do great things with little to no melanin in our hair, skin, and eyes.
Now….go do great things!
