01/22/2026
Good afternoon Van Isle and surrounding areas!
After being out of that house for awhile, with it's black mold problem all the rats and mice that moved in from the Howard Johnson, plumbing issues, wiring issues, I must say I can breathe better, feel better,I can actually smell stuff again it's amazing how a change of view makes you feel, I wake up to an amazing sunrise off my back deck and in the evening go for a walk to the end of the property for an amazing sunset.
I am actually slowly realizing I shouldn't have never moved downtown because I was raised in the country and wilderness spent a good chunk of my life in it and this is real reality and I have stressed myself out for years,for really no reason because with each passing day looking at this ,I am becoming stronger, better mentally and physically and it's not even been a month yet.
I was getting beaten down slowly, in this make believe world and it was winning!
Reality is it's stress is what makes you old and give up on life.
Humans were never meant to be stressed all the time,sure stress comes and it's goes eventually if you can have a chance to breathe and enjoy the beauty around you!
I wrapped myself up in with everyone's problems, trying to fix what I didn't break, helping those who couldn't help themselves and never gave myself the time or space I needed to heal myself because I lived in the heart of the nonsense, sometimes you have to step out of the box,to realize it's box and you just don't need to be there all the time.
To make a difference in this world, you can not let the world push it's agendas on you with pressure or no matter how strong you are, the system will crush you, it's designed too.
I now realise I can fight the system from the outside and have my peace at the same time and getting up to this and going to bed with that is how I am recharging for this upcoming round.
My last day of getting everything done in the old place is tomorrow and I have stressed myself out trying to get everything done in the last two weeks by myself,for what,they are tearing the place down anyways and if I end up leaving some stuff behind oh well, going to try not too but if I do I no longer give a f**k anymore!
There's way more important things to worry about and care about like this city and surrounding areas and all the beauty in it.
Because I made it clear I don't like the system and I refuse to let the system ruin this island and in February we are coming back stronger than ever because my battery is recharging quickly with peace and quiet!
Hope everyone has a great evening and remember enjoy life, It's not always about other people, it's about you.