08/10/2026
“I was born into a poor family. My mother worked while my father stayed at home drinking. He strongly desired a son. As a daughter, I disappointed him. I felt unwanted and rejected. When I was five, my mother died, and I went to live with strangers. I was abused, threatened and sexually harassed. I began to fear and distrust all men. I felt broken, worthless and filled with shame.”
“In 2014, a Christian woman who had also suffered abuse told me how God had healed her. She told me that I am neither forgotten nor forsaken. She told me that Jesus loved me enough to die on the cross for me. This truth broke the chains of my rejection and fear. Everything changed. I gave my life to Jesus as my Lord and Saviour. Jesus gave me an identity, wholeness and hope. In Jesus, I found the love I had been searching for all my life.”
“While working at a Christian school in Bandung, I was required to teach from a biblical perspective. This experience stirred in me a deeper calling. I realised that I wanted to study theology, both to grow personally and to serve others.”
“Bandung Theological Seminary went beyond deepening my biblical knowledge. It provided a space for healing and spiritual formation. In this community, I learned to trust and build healthy relationships, to see myself as God sees me, and to allow the Holy Spirit to redeem my suffering.”
“While working on my thesis about trauma, books were not just academic resources. They also became instruments of healing. Books helped me discover the heart of God for the broken and how Jesus is present in our pain. Through reading, I found a language for my wounds and formed a theology of suffering.”
“I dream of serving Jesus by walking alongside other young women who have also experienced rejection or abuse. I want to listen to their stories and show them that Jesus can restore even the most broken heart.”
“Please pray that I will remain faithful, grow in grace and wisdom, and serve the broken-hearted with compassion and truth. Pray that my life might reflect the healing love of Jesus.”
Read Desint’s story: https://sparklit.org/2026/10/05/the-lord-is-my-shepherd/
$4k will provide new titles for Bandung Theological Seminary’s digital library in Indonesia. To put books of hope and healing into the hands of students like Desint, donate here: https://sparklit.org/donate/
Please pray that our Heavenly Father would use these books to nourish and equip young church leaders as they seek to serve others with patience, wisdom and compassion.