Team Gillian

05/10/2026

Our early morning visit today, we love you Gillian

05/10/2026

Mother’s Day 1998 was the Day Gillian was born, she would be 28 today, we love her so much and she is so sorely missed, but today is not going to be sad, tears yes for sure but for us we’re going to remember all the joy she brought to us and to others, the funny laugh, her kindness , and yes at times how devious she could be in a funny way, I think about out little jousts we had when she was younger and her playfulness with our dogs, her back and forth with her brother, over the summer when she was in high school we came up with the Summer Sandwich Shop Tour, a different one every week, and Gillian got the same sandwich no matter where we went, ham and cheese no onions no tomatoes. Some of the shops knew her order when we came in, I would say to her can’t you get something different just once, those that knew her know the answer.

She was very unique, today is Mother’s day and for us it’s not about gifts or anything like that, it’s memories of a gift we received and will treasure the rest of our lives, Happy Heavenly Birthday Gillian and to all the Mothers Happy Mother’s Day !

04/11/2026

Yesterday we went to Wildwood for a Day Trip, it just isn’t the same anymore, so many thoughts, so many memories, looking at the Ocean, the sky, the beach, the sounds, eating the foods we loved but then I looked to the sky and things felt a little better !

We miss you so much Gillian, we will take a flume ride later this season and we know you’ll be with us

01/02/2026

12/25/2025

I tried my best this morning trying to have a little joy, watching the dogs play, we like to give, not really interested in receiving anymore, but reality sank in, I miss her so much, not being able to see her open a gift, or sit with me in the afternoon, her goofy humor, eating her favorite foods, or us watching our favorite old Christmas movie that I passed on to her, the Christmas that almost Wasn’t from back in 1971 tht my mom took me to se when I was five, the thoughts of her sitting with Beckett and Bella the last Christmas we all had together, we would sit and think of the past, the future, but today all I can do is think about you Gillian, I miss you so much, it hurts so bad, I want to scream, and maybe I will, I love you, the only present I ever want is to see you again.

11/24/2025

Thanks to all of you for your words, reactions and love whether here at Team Gillian or on my personal page, we were down to her grave site yesterday and started to place some things for Christmas which is still so difficult, we will share with everyone after we finish up next month, we want to keep her memory alive here and share things with everyone because we know everyone cannot visit, thanks again.

Craig, Nikki, Beckett, Bella, Penny !

11/23/2025

One year ago today, November 23rd our Precious and beloved Daughter Gillian Nicole Fair passed away, our lives forever changed, a year ago I was up all night knowing her time was ending, last night it was the same but it was now about seeing a million images, memories of her as a little girl, her birthdays, holidays, playing with her dogs, memorable vacations , her graduation, the Wildwood trips, our Disney Vacations, and just seeing her with us being goofy and laughing and enjoying her life.

it all flashed before my eyes overnight and throughout the morning, I know we have the memories, we have so many photos but it is what we don’t have that is killing us right now, and that is Gillian herself, all we can do is go to her gravesite and cry today, we love you so so much, we always will and we wish we could just spend another moment with you.

To all of you who have written to us, supported us thank you so much, this past year has been so hard, I wish I could say we’re doing better but the truth is we’re not, it doesn’t go away, there is no end to grief, we try to cope with it, try to be strong, try to be what Gillian would want, it is so hard, we try to do things we used to do and sometimes we can, sometimes we can’t, we go away and then think about who is missing, life does go on but it is never the same, and how could it be without your child.

Thanks again.

Craig and Nikki
Beckett, Bella, Penny

11/19/2025

I love you, I’ve been thinking about you so much this week, it’s hard to believe that this Sunday will be one year without you, I don’t think a minute goes by that your not on my mind, we all miss you so much and love you so much, all week I have been thinking about this week last year, and that last day when we looked eyes for the last time, a moment where we both knew what the outcome was going to be, it’s something I cannot get out of my mind, if I could just have one more minute to talk to you, but it’s not possible, I hope someday it will be, we love you Gillian, life will never be the same without you, for me a big part of me is over too.

For anyone who would like to join us this Sunday, no one should feel obligated, we will be down at Forest Hills at 11 am.