11/07/2024
Bigotry won the day. It’s sad, frustrating and scary. What you’re feeling right now is normal.
What you may be experiencing is a normal nervous system response to a threat. You are grappling with a sense of distrust, a lack of safety. How you have responded in the past may dictate how you are responding right now. You might also be oscillating between various stages. Again, this is a normal and valid response.
Your flight response is valid (wanting to leave the town, state, or country)
Your fight response is valid (building the resistance)
Your freeze response is valid (unable to move or do anything)
Your dissociative state is valid (feeling numb and foggy)
All of your feelings are valid
Additionally, this is what grief feels like. You are grieving. It is wild, untethered, loud, messy and sometimes explosive. There is no right or wrong way to grieve. Just let it move through you and feel all of the feelings as they arrive. If you feel overwhelmed or completely disembodied, here are some embodiment practices:
Get outside.
Look up at the sky and feel into the vastness of space.
Lean against a tree.
Watch the leaves fall.
Listen to the birds sing.
Smell the crisp, fall air.
Sit by a body of water.
Go for a walk.
Spend time with your beloveds.
Spend time with your animals.
Cry.
Laugh.
Scream.
Sing.
Dance.
Listen to music.
Watch an old or new show.
Plan a trip.
Go for a drive.
Buy yourself a fancy coffee.
Get a new shirt.
Schedule a massage or acupuncture.
Talk to your neighbors.
Sit in silence.
Breathe.
Shake it all off.
Engage in whatever coping mechanisms feel grounding, supportive, nourishing, connecting or loving. Again, there is no right or wrong way to move through this. Just keep moving, even subtly. You are simply surviving this day.
But whatever you may do, please do not tell anyone that things will get better. Do not remind the grievers of the silver lining. We are uninterested in these things. We need to feel our anger, sadness, fear and disbelief.
If you feel like you need to say something, notice how you would feel if someone said it to you. It is not your job to curate or manage anyone else's emotional state. We get to have our feelings and our experiences. We are still here and breathing, with hearts beating (even though it might not feel like it), and we just need validation. So, if you feel that discomfort or sense of urgency to fix, just say "I hear you. I'm here." Or simply sit with us in silence. Sometimes we just need physical presence with no words.
Today is another very hard day. It feels heavy, dense, numbing and it's maybe still hard to see beyond our own two feet. But remember that we’re still here, walking beside you.