Those were words I never thought I would ever have to hear as a parent. Cole had not been feeling well for a few weeks prior to us finding out. Of course being a mom I googled his symptoms first and the first thing that came up was Leukemia. I didn't believe it and pushed it too the back of my mind, but in my heart I just knew that's what it was. The night before we found out Cole had asked to go
see the dr's the next day and I knew then when after they had ran a ton of labs on him and they asked him to step out with the nurse, the answer to my question was going to be true. I can't begin to describe the feeling of anger and hurt inside. No parent should ever have to hear such horrifying news about their child's health. The day seemed like an eternity. Calling and telling family and friends the news was just unbearable. How do you tell your 4.5 yr old son that he went to the dr's to be checked out and we now end up at a hospital that he will be in for quite some time. Hearing his words tell me that he wants to go home, and you can't even begin to explain how to tell him that he isn't going home anytime soon. The more he said that too me, the more my heart broke into pieces. The days seem to roll into another, but I have to keep looking for the light at the end of the tunnel. WE WILL GET THROUGH THIS. We are so blessed to have family and friends and even strangers help and pray for Cole. This will be a long road for all of us, but I can honestly say that I will never be the same person that walked into the hospital on December 22. My life has been changed forever and I know that there is a reason why this happened to us. One day I may realize why or I may not, but faith has helped me get through this one day at time. Life is short and we are so fast paced that we forget to enjoy the little things. Enjoy and live for today and don't worry what's going to happen next week, or 5 months from now.
