11/12/2025
i finished nineteen years racing, twelve of those were cyclocross. i don’t think this was the worst cx season ever, but it definitely felt like the most disappointing in a long time. a lot of recent posts here are about sending e-mails and managing races, and that’s probably a good indicator on how i’ve approached my training 🙃
i don’t like this feeling. it’s important to be positive and find the joy in things that isn’t just racing, but if it matters then it’s OK to treat it like it matters. ambivalence is a good shield from self criticism. it’s a poor motivator for growth. i got some good plans brewing to make next year better, and i’m excited about being more intentional and less ambivalent. it’s been a minute since i’ve felt this excited about being hungry ⚔️🐺
you get one bottle post race to celebrate or despair about a race. then it’s back to the process. they’ll be more fun training posts here as we get to it!