09/23/2026
Posting this on this page because I want to be vulnerable with you guys. I've been going through a lot lately. I know so many people have it worse than me, and often times due to that knowledge I try not to share my own struggles. I usually slide them under the table, or label them as not worthy enough. That's not fair to me though.. I spend so much of my time trying to be everyone's joy, peace, helping hand, ray of sunshine or happiness in this otherwise gloomy world and yet I more often than not find myself feeling really lonely. I don't think it's due to not knowing many people, as I've come to know and meet so many new faces through the amazing events I've been able to attend. But I think its due to my own views at times. I miss genuine friendships and connections, I miss family, I miss community being more than just people you know. I miss people knowing you so well you didn't have to reach out and bluntly admit when you're struggling because that can be so hard to do for some of us.. I miss bringing meals to each other when we knew our loved one needed a night off, or coming over to just sit with each other so we didnt have to be alone. Anyway, I don't really know where I was going with this.. Maybe I wasn't ever going anywhere with it lol. But I just want everyone to know when I care about something or someone I CARE. And while I truly feel like that is my greatest super power it is also one of the hardest things to deal with. For anyone who made it this far, sorry for the rant. But also thank you for reading.