11/27/2025
I don’t even have the words to explain the pain in my heart right now I want my girl back I want my daughter to be here helping me in the kitchen and playing with her son and sisters I want to have things like they were supposed to be …..I’m so angry for every thing that has been taken ……I want to scream at the world and at whatever it is that took her from me. I don’t want to be sad anymore but a huge part of my joy was taken and to all you that say we’ll find joy in the daughters you still have at home …. You have no idea what this pain is so stop saying things like that ….of coarse they bring me joy they are why I can smile at all they are my reason to keep going they are my joy as well as my grandson …. That does not mean this sadness this pain this darkness is any less devastating and all encompassing. You don’t just push through this and no prayer or bible verse or proverb or even well meaning yet ridiculous one liner ,like “god won’t give you more than you can handle “or “time heals all things “ , is going to help and actually makes me furious . I don’t want holidays with out one of my baby’s unless it’s because they are some where happy healthy doing what they love or learning or having a family and being them . This isn’t fair …. I hope the ones that know where my baby is and what happened to her are miserable and have and aweful holiday for not sharing and coming forward with the truth that could give myself and my family peace
