10/16/2026
I honestly don't even know what to say. And this isn't even the good news I vaguely posted about the other day. (Still not allowed to share that one yet)
"Hi Mikee! Congrats! You've been selected to receive an honor at the 4th annual Hillcrest Honors in the FABULOUS COMMUNITY ACTIVIST category! Your work is noticed and appreciated by the community!"
Years ago, I hoped that one day I would accomplish enough to be recognized for the work I do. At the same time, I didn't believe I was the kind of person who could.
I looked at people receiving honors as people who were more accomplished, respected, established. Who belonged in spaces I didn't deserved to be in. Honestly, I didn't think someone with my history deserved to stand in a room with them.
I still question if I belong in some spaces. Somehow, I'm at a point in my life where I'm being invited into them. I think part of me still sees the person I used to be, and not the person I've worked hard to become.
There are many incredible people doing amazing work in our community. Who deserve to be celebrated. I have to remember that recognizing their work doesn't have to diminish my own.
I've never been concerned about leaving some legacy. I've wanted to use whatever platform/opportunities I have to do more. To help. To create spaces where people feel safe, seen, heard, like they matter.
I haven't always done things right. I've made mistakes. I've struggled. I've questioned myself more than you know. I'm still learning. I still have a lot of growing to do.
I don't have to be perfect to make a difference. And my past doesn't disqualify me from being recognized for what I'm doing today. I am proud of the work I've done. I'm proud of the people I've worked with. And I'm grateful for people who have given me opportunities, believed in me, challenged me, and helped me get to where I am.
I still have a hard time receiving recognition. My brain tells me to question if I've done enough to deserve it.
I'm going to try something different
I'm going to allow myself to be proud. To receive this without feeling like I need to justify why I deserve it.
Thank you Hillcrest Honors for seeing me