04/07/2026
How are you doing?
I usually say I’m good, but how are you? Honestly, I don’t know. I don’t know what words can describe or express how I am. I’m overwhelmed. My relationship is dead. My parents don’t understand and have expectations. I feel like my kids don’t enjoy my company. All I do is work. I’m too busy. Family and friends are just on the sidelines, cheering for you. It’s only me. I’m lonely, bro. I don’t know where to start. I don’t feel excited or driven. I’m not enough. I don’t want to lose anyone, but I feel like I’m slowly losing myself.
I don’t even know what word can express how I feel. Not even depression or lost. The only thing that keeps me going is that I don’t know, and that makes me want to know what’s wrong with me.
I realize it’s my role and who I think I am. I am a father, a husband, a brother, a friend, a leader, a son, and much more. My expectation of being enough keeps me doing so much to make myself validate that role. I’m overwhelmed! I need a break! I just want to be me. I want to be a kid again and I want to feel life. I want to feel wanted, I want to laugh and smile, be excited for the next day, and I don’t know where to start. Because of my role, everyone around me see me like that’s not you, or I don’t think you will like it, and it felt like an automatic shut down, or won’t even put effort.
Well, I’m back, with a million ideas and a vision to be in action for anyone. I want to start trying new activities and share it with those that we don’t know where to start to have fun and spark back into our lives to share with our families and community.
Feel free to share or comment below an activity or hobby that we can share with our family-friendly or self-loved.
With a lot of love!
Xao Vang
