10/20/2024
How I Learned to Forgive Myself
By Mrs.G
aka Gina Hill
For many years, darkness sat and infected my heart; it was the shadow of regrets I could not let go of.
I will carry this heaviness forever because I deserve it. Right?
Yet, in my own eyes, I see grace and mercy for everyone else, but not for me.
Why do I see beauty in the darkest heart of someone else
but I can't see the flicker of light that is trying to shine in my own?
I continued with life helping others and rejoicing in their successes and one day I started feeling light.
It happened again the next day and the next, I was smiling and excited for each new day.
What is happening to me? Am I healing?
I realized on my journey to helping others I was unconsciously healing too.
For the first time in many years, I felt good about being......... ME:)
The more kindness, love, and patience I gave to others, it came back to me.
How did this happen?
I was in the way of my healing and forgiveness, yet how I got it was showing someone else how to receive it.
Why did I not allow myself the same grace I show to others?
Why did I feel I always have to suffer because I made mistakes?
I now see MY HURT is REAL, MY HURT MATTERS, and MY HURT NEEDED GRACE TOO.
Forgiveness is an ACTION and if you are not truly living, loving, and giving you can’t forgive.
The day I took action and saw the light in the ones that hurt me, in return, I FORGAVE MYSELF.
Dedicated to all the clients at Addiction Recovery Centers of the Black Hills and anyone struggling to forgive themselves.
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