10/16/2024
10/10 on 10/10
On October 10, 2024, I celebrated the 10th of 10 years cancer free: 10/10 on 10/10. I am officially considered "cured", which means that I can stop taking the medication that I've been taking the last 10 years. It means that after 10 years there is No Evidence of Disease - NED - and I am in complete remission. It doesn't mean that I can't get a new incident, so I should continue with the recommended lifestyle habits that I've been following: exercise, eat right, limit stress, etc. The trouble is that I always followed these recommendations (well, maybe not the stress), but I got cancer anyway. I feel a certain amount of frustration about this, particularly when some people remark that I must have "done something" to get cancer. No one deserves to get cancer - it's unfair and wrong that anyone, but especially young people, including children, get cancer. Sometimes bad things happen to good people, and it's simply not right. Some people, like me, are NED, but for others the cancer keeps returning. At times I feel no uncertain amount of survivor's guilt that I made it 10 years, yet other really good people, some of them close friends and family, did not. It's not "for the best" that good people die, nor is it fair, deserved, or "for a reason".
The most I can do as a survivor is to cherish each day, each moment, and to be the best that I can be to myself and others. Easier said than done, I know...it's a process called life, and I'm really glad to be alive.