07/08/2025
Happy Birthday to me today. 28 years ago, I gave birth to a baby girl. I named her Glenda (Baby-G). She was born on my birthday; she lived 3 hours then she died. Her head stone reads everything about my name and birthdate, except the year she died. The seemed to be the worst thing a mother should ever face. I wanted to just die. I remembered falling to sleep and being awoken by my nurse saying she needed to clean me up for a procedure they wanted to perform on me (trying to allow her a chance to stay inside my womb for a little longer. Well, my bag ruptured, and she had to be born.
I remember praying and God allowed me to vision a field of flowers I rested in which I thought (remembering that it was my birthday) HE was preparing to take me back with HIM (die). So, I began to repeat and ended up falling to sleep. I now understand why I had to live, God has called me to serve in a manner that I am not always received or accepted but I am embraced by many that has gotten a chance to know me and what I stand for. For some reason this year I have been grieving that baby’s loss (Heavens Gain).
God did tell me some years ago that my pain would be for others gain, sometimes, I tend to take it with a grain of salt. So, when times are trying, I try to reason the best out of the worst circumstances. Because if God allowed it, it is for a good cause. A friend posted this challenge from high school on facebook and I took it. I found out that I am mirrored in the image of my mother but not only am I imaged through her,
I also have my mothers and fathers DNA, but the best news is! that when I became born again through Christ Jesus I took on the DNA of God, I no longer have to carry the burden of family curses and the sins of my mother and father, I have been set free and I am so thankful and now I realize that, that baby that went back to God became my guardian angel. I pray I am helping someone with this story.
I shared my loss with a mother yesterday, that lost one of her children. "We are not to grieve like that, (losses) we are meant to live and live the life that God has given us and purposed us for". That encounter was a lesson for me, encouraging her encouraged me, I needed to snap back because the enemy had sneaked in through a closed door for whatever reason That was reopened, to put me in a dark place, a place where God had delivered me from. Be careful of his tricks, he only comes to kill steal and destroy. God will always provide a way out for you (an escape) 1 Corn. 10:13.
I have worked hard to maintain who I am. I am Senior Evangelist/ Dr. Glenda Johnson MS, DD until God says differently.
