08/04/2026
I hadn't posted a picture of myself and my husband with Eddie.....but
I want to open up and share the real truth about what the last three months have been like. Organizing Eddie's memorial event has been one of the hardest things I have ever done.
It is far from easy, and it breaks my heart when people assume this comes naturally or easily to me.
Every single post, paragraph, and photo I share reopens a heavy wound, forcing me to face the reality that my beautiful grandson is gone & now only a memory. Many tears and breakdowns have come during this whole process.
Before moving forward with a single detail of this 5K, I went directly to Eddie’s mom, Clara, and my son to ask for their blessing.
We have their full blessing, which is the only validation we ever needed. My husband and I have taken on the massive task of planning every single detail entirely on our own—from reserving the park and calling on sponsors to managing emails, talking to school administration, counting registrations, and ordering t-shirts, race merchandise, everything he and I alone are doing.
We did not want to overwhelm Eddie's parents or siblings with anything as the grief is heavy and we did not want to burden them anymore then they are already, while dealing with the loss and grief of Eddie.
Our sole purpose is to honor Eddie because of how much we love him and miss him and it is because of this we feel the assembly for Fort Stockton students is vital, so they can learn to cope with the loss of a classmate,while also helping our family grieve and cope at the same time.
While we have received beautiful, comforting private messages from people sharing memories of Eddie or opening up about their own battles with grief, we have also faced hurtful negativity. When people choose to offer negative comments or hurtful opinions instead of helping, it adds an unnecessary weight to an already painful time.
With the event just under three weeks away, the anxiety and stress take over at times because I want this event to be as honorable and as beautiful as Eddie was. There are moments when the exhaustion makes me just want to reach the day of the race and have it all be over with.
But because my love for my grandson is so boundless, I pray on it all, lean into God, and keep pushing forward for our family and ,for Eddie's friends and classmates ...and for everyone trying to cope and grieve.
This is all 100% all out of love for Eddie.