Emery Belle’s Angels

Emery Belle’s Angels Amarillo NICU support in honor of my twin girls, Emery Belle and Avery Layne. ��

05/26/2026

It’s been three months and two days since I lost you. It feels like such a long time but realizing that I have to go the rest of my life without you. That feels much longer. I miss you everyday. I think about the milestones you might be hitting if you were still here, if you’d smile when you heard me sing “you are my sunshine” like Avery does. Wishing I had pictures of the two of you together in your bow swaddles we picked out for your newborn photos before we knew you were so sick. I wish you were still here and we were in the twin room you should have had to begin with. I just know you would have had the best personality. Sweet and kind but mischievous. I knew that about you from the beginning. I pictured you and Avery together and how much you’d love each other. I’m sad Avery doesn’t have her twin. I’m sad we don’t have our baby. Lovey talks about you a lot. I wish you could have met Daw paw. I can’t wait to hold you again some day. I wish I could just go back to that last day and hold you one last time.

05/17/2026

I never even got to hear you cry. You were immediately intubated. Watching you have to be intubated was so tough. I wish I could hear your cry, one day your laugh, see you smile. I love you.

NicoleThe last three days of Emery’s life, we had a very special nurse. She spent those three days with us, got to know ...
05/13/2026

Nicole

The last three days of Emery’s life, we had a very special nurse. She spent those three days with us, got to know us, got to know Emery. She loved Emery too, like we did. She tried to be strong, but I could tell she was hurting with us. Her eyes were full of tears, but she stayed grounded and kept us comfortable along with Emery. She helped us with her foot and hand prints, became our photographer, helped us bathe and clothe her, stayed by our side. She helped us wheel all of our belongings to the car we had brought and accumulated. I’ll never forget her, the love she had for us, and the kindness she gave.

Two months later, back at Cooks with Avery, we see her in the unit. My husband asks her if she remembers him. “Of course!!? How could I forget? Look what I have.” She lifts up her name badge and there it is, Emery’s foot print. “I carry this around with me everywhere I go.”

05/13/2026

Our chaplain at Cooks told us “It’s okay to cry. I believe tears are holy.”

-Katy Walters

Twin B. That’s what they called you at 7 weeks gestation. You didn’t have a name yet, but you had eyes, ears, and hands....
05/13/2026

Twin B. That’s what they called you at 7 weeks gestation. You didn’t have a name yet, but you had eyes, ears, and hands. On the sonogram I joked that you looked like little shrimps. Baby A came first, but there was a second heart beat, and it was yours. We cried softly. Not because we were scared or sad, but because you were an addition to something that was already so amazing. Twins. “Wow, you both are very calm for just finding out you’re having twins”. The tech was shocked we were not reacting the way other parents she had seen. I let her know it was because I already knew. I knew when I got pregnant, it wasn’t going to be a normal pregnancy. I didn’t know just how different it would be. Little did we know, at 7 weeks, your heart had probably already begun to grow differently. You see, Hypoplastic left heart syndrome develops within the first 8 weeks of pregnancy. Twin B. Emery Belle. Before I met you, I carried you. Before I carried you, I prayed for you. You were always a baby to me. A baby I wanted and had plans for. My twin B, I don’t know how I’ll ever come to terms with such a huge loss.

05/12/2026

I miss you Emmy.

04/25/2026

Sweet emery, my beautiful girl, I miss you. I question everything now. I don’t know how my world will keep going. It’s been over 2 months and I still cry for you everyday. I’m sorry that my body failed you over and over again.

04/23/2026

Thinking about you today. I miss your sweet little face.

04/19/2026

With joy comes pain and that’s exactly the reality of today. It’s been two months since I first laid my eyes on you.

04/17/2026

I think of you everyday sweet Emery. One day we will meet again. I wish momma could have saved you. I would have done anything in the world. 💔

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