20/12/2022
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Love, I wish that everything could go back to the way it was, but I don't think it will. If I could, I would turn back time.
Loving you changed my life and losing you has done the same. I thought nothing could keep as apart. And if something did, I didn't think it would be you. A twist I never expected but unwillingly I need to accept.
Actually kaya paman to masave ang ato relationship wa lang gud ka faith na maayos pa, waka nisalig nako. So what kung nabasag na? Diba ikaw man nag ingon nako na if gubot na ang tanan pwede mag start balik? Pero mas gipili nimong tapuson kay dili naman ko worth a risk para nimo, iba imong gipili, mas gitagaan nimog chance ang bag'o, mas gipili nimo na mag start sa iba. Unfair diba? I valued you the most but in the end I am nothing, you dumped me without regret. Sabagay, dili nako nimo ma'appreciate kung iba na imong gusto. I won't bother you again love, but please know that you'll always have a place in my heart. I excell at many things but I guess getting over you wasn't one of them because I can't get you out of my heart. You will always be here, my heart will remain open for you. I'll just leave the door open just in case you decide to comeback. Mag huwat ko nimo as long as love pa tika pero dili nako mag expect. Pag muabot man gani ang adlaw nga ni undang nako dili na buot ipasabot na gikapoy nako, waiting for you has become my full time job, sig**o niundang nalang ko kay wala naman ang gipa'abot nako, what choice do I have.
Mao ba ning imong promise na maging worth it tanan? Ni promise ka nako na maging worth it tanan. Suffering and loss lagi ako nafeel ron. You promised that you won't leave me no matter what the situation is, what happened now? You broke me, beyond repair. Gi bali wala nimo ang imong mga promise ug ang mga sabot nato, unsay nahitabo sa imong mga puhon? Nisalig kug maayo nimo, everyday nag huwat ko na muabot ang adlaw na matuman imong saad, nag huwat ko pirme na matuman imong mga puhon, nag huwat ko na matuman ang ato mga plano para sa ato future, nag huwat ko kay nag promise ka na "puhon muabot rata diha, puhon pirme nata magkuyog." Nag huwat ko kay nag promise ka, nag promise ka na ako ra, ako ra'y gusto nimo makauban, na ako na'y last para nimo. Diba nag sabot ta na pag muabot man gani ang point na lisod na kaayo isipon lang nato atong future? Gibuhat man nako, bisag gibali wala nako nimo nag stay lang gehapon ko, bisag nati'take for granted nalang ko nag stay lang gehapon ko nimo, halos wala naka'y oras para nako pero nag stay lang gehapon ko, bisag mag sige nakag pamakak nag stay lang gehapon ko, halos manlimos nakos imong attention pero nag stay lang gehapon ko, bisag dili nako worth a risk para nimo nag stay lang gehapon ko kay lagi ni promise ka sauna na maging worth it tanan, ug naa sad ko faith na maging okay ra tanan nga naingon ani rata kay tungod na layo tas usa'g usa, dili man ta maingon ani kung pirme ta magkuyog gi intindi unta nimo. Nisugal ko bisag wala na'y assurance, nag take risk ko bisag dili na "ako." Gipili tika bisag miserable na kaayo ko. Sa bisag unsa na situation ikaw ra, kay ang ako love para nimo wala nag base sa feelings ra kay "feelings will only sustain your relationship for a short period of time, what it takes to move forward in the long run is decision and commitment. Being committed to a person means you will choose him/her even when you don't feel like it." Tanan man mag bag'o dili mana about lang pirme sa kalipayan ra muabot man pirme ang boring stage, nagkuwang raman ko kay tungod na layo ko nimo.
Love tika unconditionally through ups and downs, wala may nag bag'o ikaw raman gehapon bisag naa naka'y lain. "The heart wants what the heart wants." Sa tinuod lang gusto naman tika makalimtan pero mas gimingaw lang nuon ko nimo love. Gusto na tika makalimtan kay wala nakoy padulngan ani ako ang pildi ug bisan pa pag bali'balihon ang kalibutan wa najud kay labot nako bisag maunsa pa'ko. Pero unsaon man nako na makalimot kung gikan inig-mata nako sa buntag hangtod sa ako pag-tuog ikaw ray naa sa ako isipan hangtod sa damgo nako ikaw ra gehapon, lisod kalimtan imong mga promises love kay gi value ug treasure to nako bisag words rato, unsaon nako pag limot kung ikaw ra gud pirme akong gipangita, unsaon nako pag limot kung ikaw ra gud ako'y gusto wala na'y iba. Love na love tika m**g lapas pa's imohang expectations, words can't define and feelings can't express. Kaya man nako mo'laban para nimo, kaya tika panindigan bisag kinsa pana diha, kaya nako tanan para nimo. Ang dili lang nako mahimo kay ang ipugos nimo na ako imong pili'on, ang kaya raman nako kay ang higugmaon ka, endlessly. Pero nag ingon man ka nako na "love is not enough." Kung wa lang gud ta nagkalayo di unta ta main-ani, di unta nimo makita sa iba ang ako pagkukuwang.
But, I'm happy you're doing well. I need to find that for myself somewhere. I hope I can. I hope the pain will heal in time. I hate you for making me love you soo much and I hate you for giving up on us. I need to forget the love I have for you but I don't know how to do that.
I hope I can pretend that we've never met but the truth is, if I could live in an alternate universe , I'd live in one where we never broke up and spend my lifetime with you. I just can't picture myself loving someone else, I would still choose you. I'd find you and I'd choose you, I'll always lookout for you that's what I'll do in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality. And if I found you, I will love you for a thousand years more. We are made of particles that have existed since the moment the universe began. I like to think those atoms traveled 14 billion years through time and space to create us, so that we could be together and make each other whole.
Kung tinuod man na nag exist ang alternate universe unta ang reality nato adto kay kay kitang duha ang nagka-dayun, unta ako ang imong gipili didto, unta mas gipili nimong mag stay nako instead na mubiya, unta mas gipili nimong ifix ang ato relationship, unta gitagaan ko nimo'g chance, unta ako ang imong naging "The One."
You are the beginning of everything I wished for Ikaw na naging standard nako, dili nako mangitag lain pero kung naa may muabot dawaton nako mag ri'risk gehapon ko kung worth it.
You broke my heart but I still love you with all the pieces.
I'll still love you for all your faults, whoever you are.
I still love you despite of everything you put me through.
You are still the first and last thing on my mind each and everyday. How can I forget you? How can I unlove you when my heart still beats and ask for you, Ingon paman sa kanta "how can I move on when I'm still in love with you?"
"I love you in ways you've never been loved,
for reasons you've never been told,
for longer than you think you deserved,
and with more than you will ever know,
existed inside me."
I don't know what the future holds but I know to myself na I will always love, I will always do.
I gave you all I could give, love. Honestly, I didn't even know I was capable of loving someone soo much. Ginuine, pure and immeasurable ang ako love para nimo wala makapantay ana. Kahibaw ko na panagsa lisod sabton ang ako batasan pero sincere ang ako intentions para nimo puhon marealize lang g**o nimo na gi ampingan lang tika sa strikto na pinaagi kay mahadlok ko na makakita kag lain.
I love you still, I always will, I always have.
I love you straight from the deepest part of my heart.
I love you to infiiiiinity and beyond.
Take the smiles, from all of our years.
I'll take the tears.
Goodbye my greatest love, take care & stay safe.
'llBeTheGreatestFanOfYourLife
Loving you still, The Man Who Can't Be Moved 🥀.
