06/11/2019
We knew from the beginning in our journey with Hope that, being a dwarf, she had quite a few obstacles to overcome. And Hope was, without a doubt, an overcomer.
We watched Hope grow and learn to find ways to work around her challenges. Caring for her took a good amount of time, work, and patience but there is no price we can put on the rewards, which were great. She appreciated everything done for her. She loved to cuddle, really cuddle. She loved Kitty Cat, her Portacooler, and music. She loved to meet people and other animals. And she truly loved her big blue bed and her stuffed toy and BFF, Jerry.
Hope was a happy little calf that smiled a lot - her smiles were contagious. Everyone that met her simply adored her. Bob and I loved sitting with her, talking with her, and watching her in awe. During those times, at least for me, I could sit and just breathe - not stress about what still needed to be done that day, not look at the phone or the clock, not worry - just relax and breathe.
The last two days that Hope was with us were horribly hot and humid. She seemed off, just not herself. She didn't have a temperature and her vitals were normal. Her appetite wasn't what it normally would be but that happened at times when the heat and humidity were especially bad. The next day she wasn't interested in food or water. Her temp, HR, and RR were all still normal. Concerned about dehydration, we did get water and electrolytes in her. I stayed with Hope, all day, observing her and following Dr. Sonday's instructions in giving meds, etc. If Hope got worse, or was no better by the next morning, Dr. Sonday would be out.
By evening, I became very concerned that I hadn't seen Hope chew her cud. I rubbed her belly and used Essential Oils on her. After awhile, she did start burping and then chewed her cud some. She started drinking water which was a huge relief. Hope walked around a little, picked at a little grass, and I was delighted that she took a cookie from me which she had refused all day. We tried taking selfies again but, as usual, I didn't do very well at it. As the night came, she rested and we watched. At 12:03 am, she very peacefully slipped away from us.
We all knew that someday, that day would come, but we had hoped for much more time with Hope. Dr. Sonday said that Hope's organs were as her body, not correct in form and function to sustain life into adulthood. She assured me that all that was done, was the best that could be done, and that Hope just wasn't built to live in our world for long.
Hope gave many people joy and a sense of purpose. She was, and always will be, a very special girl that touched our hearts deeply. We were more then blessed to have had her entrusted to our care for as long as we did. I know I'll see her again someday, with a perfect body and perfect legs that enable her to run all over the place!
I haven't brought myself to read your posts yet, but I will. Jeanne has warned me to grab tissues before I do. We loved this little miracle calf that shouldn't have survived birth much less survived living on the ground for the first several weeks of her life with the hot sun and torrential rains beating down on her. It says a lot about her determination and love for life. We're slowly adjusting, accepting, and moving forward. God bless all of you for caring.
When the world says "Give Up", Hope whispers "Try it one more time."
