09/02/2024
On this day in history: 3 years ago 09/02/2021 I had a CT and bone scan. Later that day I got a phone call to say that the 💩 cancer was back and lurking in my liver, lungs, spine & ribs.
Bless my oncologist he was ringing to say could he see me at an appointment later in the week but I pushed him into telling me there & then.
To say it's been a turbulent 3 years is an understatement. But being reflective I also have an awful lot to be grateful for too.
Some things have been out of our control, while other things we have grasped with open arms. I am forever thankful for having Mark Stewart by my side. We debate whose daft idea something was. But on the whole we are muddling through. Guess what? That's exactly what everyone else is doing on the rollercoaster of life.
There are times in this 💩 storm when I hate my body. Feel betrayed by it. There are times when i feel sad &/or guilty of ways I must have mistreated myself to be in this situation. Then there are times when I think bloody hell it's showing some resilience in this bombardment of cancer & treatments. The key is trying to support yourself emotionally, mentally and mentally. This takes time & effort. It's bloody tough to navigate without feeling all consumed.
That's where you all come in. My beautiful family & friends. My cheerleaders, my friends who send daft messages & pressies. My primary & secondary school friends who managed to meet for a reunion last summer. For my fabulous set of friends who are also living with SBC. Who bolster me with love, info & insights. Some I meet face to face, some online. But we are always there. Some unfortunately have gained their wings and I miss them with all my heart. I will continue to live my life for them too.
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