15/06/2026
I knew the hair loss was coming...
When I was first diagnosed with terminal cancer, one of the very first things I did was ask my sweet mama to shave my head. It sounds weird, but my hair was actually one of my favorite things about myself. So I shaved it because I knew cancer was going to take enough from me already, and I wanted to be the one making that decisionb and symbolically take some power back.
Since then, I've kept it short because everyone loses their hair at different stages and different paces. Lately I had gotten a little lazy about shaving, and it had started growing back to just longer than stubble. Then yesterday morning, I woke up and my pillow was absolutely covered in hair. I knew this day was coming, but somehow I still wasn't prepared for how sudden it would be. Even with my hair already shaved short, seeing that much hair on my pillow shook me a bit more than I expected And honestly, I felt like I looked like a monster. I can't imagine what it would have felt like if I still had my long hair so I'm actually VERY happy I shaved my head when I did!
Thankfully, I don't have to go through any of this alone. My dad saw me trying (and failing miserably to fight back tears and gave me a massive,well needed hug, and Rakan promised to clean it up with the clippers. Just when I was feeling so ugly and that I look horrific, again I was reminded of just how much love I'm surrounded by and I felt nothing but gratitude... and a bit of a cold head. But on the bright side, that just means I get to shop for summer beanies, scarves and hats without any guilt π right? Plus with eyelashes and eyebrows going next, I'll have a reason to shop for sunglasses too! But one thing I AM going to brag about here is that I'm not going to shave my legs to have silky smooth legs all summer! πππ
*Also on a serious note, does anyone know what eyebrow pencils/pens/things that are easy to use? I've seen ones that look like a pen but draw what looks like individual hairs. I've also seen eyebrow stick-on tattoos, I think, but I have a feeling id mess that one up and be stuck looking a bit wonky for too long... I know eyebrows don't really matter in the grand scheme of things but it might be nice to have options is all.
Honestly, the people around me have been incredible. My dad has been working tirelessly sorting through the mountains of rubbish left behind on the property. Anyone familiar with buying old houses in Japan knows that one of the biggest hidden costs can be disposing of everything previous owners leave behind. It's exhausting work, but he's been tackling it day after day.
At the same time, Rakan has been helping to clear spaces to build and improve enclosures. He has learned every animal care routine, and makes sure I have nothing to worry about except for resting and healing. The animals are receiving all the love and care they need, and somehow everyone keeps finding ways to make me laugh. I feel like a princess here, it makes me blush and do a very uncharacteristic girly giggle sometimes!
And speaking of the animals, we have plenty of happy news. I'm so sorry I've been so bad at posting lately. But our little Japanese pygmy woodpecker is really thriving under Rakan's care. If everything continues to go well, he should be ready for release in around ten days. The family who found him will be taking him back to the exact location where he was rescued so he has the best chance of rejoining his family in the wild.
We've also adopted out ALL of our adoptable dogs. Saying goodbye to 6 dogs, 2 cats and 11 kittens in the span of 2 weeks or so has been incredibly difficult but a much needed step for AnimO to shift our focus to the animals that other places can't take in.
The two baby crows are also doing wonderfully. They haven't quite figured out how to eat independently yet so still need feeding every couple of hours, but since they're in an outdoor enclosure, it means I can still spend time working with them, even in my current weakened state. (My doctor has banned me from working with birds indoors because the dander can easily cause lung infections that my body won't be able to survive from.)
Anyone who knows me knows how much I love birds. Dogs may be my favorite animals, but birds are my passion. And honestly, out of all the things cancer has thrown at me so far, the hardest part hasn't been the pain, the nausea, the fatigue, the nosebleeds, or even losing my hair. The truth is, the hardest part of all of this is not being able to spend as much time with my birds! The good news is that every day gets us a little closer to recovery. Every day the animals grow stronger, and every day I get another reason to smile.
So for now, I'll keep focusing on healing, loving the animals, laughing and loving with the people around me, and maybe investing in an impressive collection of sunglasses, scarves and hats π I will need sunglasses because without the hairs that protect my eyes from airborne debris and direct, harsh sunlight on the sanctuary, I'll have other issues. Plus I'll look a lot cooler π
Thank you to everyone who continues to support AnimO, the animals, and me. We're all doing okay. And on most days, we're actually doing much better than okay β€οΈ
If you'd like to help in any way by sending towels and blankets etc, please contact us for details on where to send them, or even come by for a visit and drop them off and have a look around!
There are also many other ways to help.
Patreon is the absolute best because from only $3 a month (there are many tiers to choose from), you can help build a stable income for the animals' needs, from food, vet bills, enrichment toys, and of course enclosure upgrades.
patreon.com/MinasAnimalSanctuary
We will be updating our Amazon wishlist today. This is for animal foods and supplements etc.
https://www.amazon.jp/hz/wishlist/ls/1NB6PNYVFWBI7?ref_=wl_share
I made an Amazon wishlist with a few things that will make the upcoming hospital stays and upcoming chemo side effects a little easier. I'm off to the hospital again for a few days tomorrow for the next round of chemotherapy.
https://www.amazon.jp/hz/wishlist/ls/3SA584ZO2WK6X?ref_=wl_share
My dear friend has created a GoFundMe to help with cancer treatment costs. Even after I finish chemo, because of the difficulty of my specific cancer, I will be on treatment long-term. I'll be going every 3 weeks for the next 2 years for immunotherapy, and more chemo here and there.
https://gofund.me/382b22937
I'd you'd like to know more about my cancer, you can look up "small cell neuroendocrine carcinoma stage 3C1r." The prognosis is very grim but I'd do plan on fighting this and living a long time. I have too much to do to set AnimO up to become the light and the way forward for animal welfare in Japan that it was always meant to be...