30/05/2026
Grief is more than just sadness or just missing someone.
Its the emotional weight that nobody tells you what it actually feels like.
The physical side of carrying loss around inside you every single day.
It feels like drowning on dry land. Like there's a weight sitting on your chest that never lifts. You're breathing, technically, but it doesn't feel like enough air is getting in.
It feels like your body forgot how to work right. You're exhausted all the time, bone-deep, soul-crushing exhaustion, but you can't sleep. Or you sleep too much and wake up more tired than when you went to bed.
Your body can't figure out what it needs because what it needs is them back, and that's not happening.
Your stomach is a disaster. You're either starving or sick. Food tastes like nothing or makes you want to throw up. You forget to eat for an entire day and then eat everything in sight at midnight.
Your body doesn't know what to do with itself anymore.
Your head from crying or not crying or crying so much you can't cry anymore. Your whole body is just tired of holding this.
And people don't see it.
They see you standing there. Functioning. Going through the motions. They think you're okay because you're upright.
Because you showed up. Because you're not actively sobbing in front of them.
But inside? Inside you're fighting just to keep your body from collapsing.
You're using every ounce of energy you have just to stay standing.
To keep breathing.
To not fall apart in the middle of wherever you are because your body feels like it's being held together with tape.
And nobody tells you that. Nobody warns you that losing someone doesn't just break your heart, it breaks your whole body.
That’s what grief actually feels like. Heavy. Exhausting. Physical.
And some days, just keeping your body going is all you can do.
