18/03/2020
This week I will make a huge step in this project and here on this project annotations page I will say what why
Two things haunt me. ME. Not other autistics per se. My version... my lifetime haunting: (1) double edge: my “gift” is explaining things // my curse is complete babble and breakdown when the things being explained is me. It’s just soup. A dear old friend who before has helped me DRAW OUT what I need to say and get it simply on paper (I need an official “prospectus” to move forward) (2) Imposter Syndrome. I hate modern nomenclatures but yeah. I’m just one big ass poser *shrug*. (3) my hugelyest biglyest fear is “poisoning” the pool of those I love the most. “Reverse Midas Touch” is what it has long felt like. So because I love them soooo much, and the other 2 reasons, I have been frozen.
So one dear to help me get the mush-mash in my head into people words and visuals.
And another newer but also dear friend to help get the tech “modernised”. Yes, comp sci since 6 yrs old (1971) but I’m as scattered and muddled as can be with this here and now. So thank you to himself, both him selves. All - stay tuned.