15/10/2026
“I would’ve given my last breath to see you take your first”
Four years ago, I finally got my baby, our little miracle. But with him here, a huge part of me feels that heavy guilt whenever I look back at the path it took to get here.
It feels almost strange to participate in the Wave of Light, like I shouldn't look backward when I finally have what I fought so hard for.
Ten losses came before River. Ten quiet heartbeats that shaped me.
The truth is, having him didn’t erase the thoughts of the babies I lost, it just changed how I carry them.
Tonight, I’m lighting this candle for the ten babies who didn't get to stay, while holding my boy a little tighter.
You can love the family you have here and still deeply grieve the ones you had to say goodbye to.
To my lost little ones: you are still, and always will be a huge part of our story, and you are always remembered.💙💕