10/19/2026
187 days. A lifetime of love packed into a goodbye we were never ready to say. 🤍
Today, we are preparing to say goodbye to our beloved Cedar.
Cedar came into this world with a splayed leg, and from the very beginning, her journey was different. We tried measures to correct it, sought veterinary support, and did everything we could to give her the best chance at a life. Every day we got with her felt like a gift, and making it to 187 days together is something I will always hold close to my heart.
Yesterday, things began to take a turn for the worse. We watched our girl closely, and as difficult as it is to accept, Cedar has been showing us that she is tired. With winter approaching and her current condition declining, we have made the heartbreaking decision to let her go with dignity, rather than ask her to keep fighting for us.
I have feared this day since the moment she was born. I poured my heart and soul into this bird, knowing she had challenges ahead of her, and hoping we could give her more time than anyone might have expected. We fought for her, supported her, celebrated her little victories, and loved her through every difficult moment. Now, it is my turn to honour the trust she placed in me by listening when she tells me she is done.
We are hoping to have Forever Loved Veterinary Hospice & In-Home Euthanasia come to our home as soon as possible to help us lay our girl to rest peacefully. We have secured help with cremation and urn arrangements, and while we await a response from Forever Loved, we were quoted $500 plus mileage.
If anyone would like to contribute toward Cedar's end-of-life care, donations can be sent to [email protected]. Please know this is absolutely not expected. Your kind words, love, and support mean more than you know, and they are more than enough to help us through this.
We are also asking that no one visit the farm unannounced today or tomorrow. We need these next hours to be quiet and private, to spend quality time with Cedar and navigate her end-of-life arrangements without interruption. We appreciate everyone respecting this boundary while we prepare to say goodbye.
As the person who has cared for Cedar so closely, I cannot put into words the hole this is going to leave in my heart. This loss hits differently. She was never just another animal on our farm. She was a little soul who needed extra help from her very first breath, and I was lucky enough to be the person who got to walk beside her through this chapter of her life.
I don't know how to fill the space she will leave behind. I only know that loving her has been worth every sleepless night, every worry, every attempt to help her, and every single one of these 187 days.
Cedar, I promised you I would listen to you. I promised I would do right by you. And even though every part of me wishes we had more time, I will keep that promise.
One day, I hope we will find each other again. Until then, my girl, you can rest. You don't have to fight for me anymore.
187 days together. Loved for a lifetime. Forever our Cedar. 💚🪶