25/09/2025
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Leaving it here if anybody can ever relate to this(Don't intended to get anything in return,no sympathy,no empathy)
I was grown up in a separated family so I never got my parents emotionally available to me.They just carried out their responsibilities bcz they were mere responsibilities to them.So I grew up in my own way with my free-spirits.They took me for granted,hence my attachments never budded.Other relatives?As typical bengali crooked relatives do,they never spared a single moment for me rather they brag me to be the happiest after surviving such a fam and thriving into academic excellences LoL.Anyways,I have no potential,no special talent just an average guy just going with the flow.Even I can no longer study as I could before BUET.Again,I got no friends in my school,college,university.Sounds funny, right ?but yeah that's the truth.Literally if you ask any I can't mention a single name in my entire 20yrs, such a tyrannical loner I'm.Nobody ever listened to me nor I could open up myself.People just do for their sake.They be sympathizing like "Ah,you got these issues?Time will heal Or better consult with mental health specialist" Or giving you
fu***ng solutions(BUT deep down inside you know nothing will never ever change), leaving you passing thousand judgements with your emptiness only.Atp,I no longer need any friends.
I just don't give a flying f**k to all the formalities in this fu***ng world.I will never forgive myself,I will never forgive my birth-givers,I won't forgive this excruciating world and I won't forgive any being that procreates to another soulless existence.I will never forgive solitude,I will never forgive companionship.All I just wait for a peaceful death after all the formalities being over.Only Then I can share each and everything of me with my own graveyard.