31/12/2024
So just a few months ago, I was a hardworking, patient, and disciplined person. However, things started to change after a couple of months. Moving to a new town alone brought a lot of stress and competition, which gradually led to burnout. As a result, my passion, dedication, desire, and dreams started to dwindle. I even started using my phone late into the night, scrolling through social media.
When I came home for winter vacation, I realized how undisciplined and sleep-dependent I had become. I spent all day on my phone and certainly wasn't hardworking anymore.
Deep down, I was competing with highly talented students around me. No matter how hard I worked, I couldn't seem to improve my results. So, I stopped hard working and practised those bad habits. This made me think about how to break free from these bad habits. I didn't want to become this undisciplined person. I wanted to be hardworking, disciplined, creative, and a good student.
As 2024 comes to a close, I started planning for 2025. I wanted to stop these bad habits and truly become the person I wanted to be. Then, just two days before 2025, I read the amazing book "Dopamine Detox." This book helped me understand what I needed to do.
You see, when I stopped working hard and focused on easy tasks like scrolling social media, I got short-term results. This actually trained my brain to prioritize short-term gratification over long-term goals. As a result, my brain pushed me to avoid hard work and studying, and instead, encouraged me to do comfortable and overstimulating activities like sleeping and scrolling. I realized I had to stop seeking those short-term results.
To achieve this, I made the decision to deactivate all my social media accounts until December 15th. While I might lose some connection with you and the people close to me, I will still think of you during this time. I will also keep posting updates through other means. So, see you soon! Bye.
