The Big Three. Strive, Thrive and Live

The Big 3 is giving my all to help raise awareness for those who live in dark and lonely places. With the support of family friends and communities i will be raising awareness for child abuse and neglect by taking on big challenges - My sweat for their tears. I grew up thinking in a world where by the time I had left high school that domestic, physical and sexual abuse was " normal". At the age o

f 7 my twin sister and I where left with our father and by all who knew him loved and thought highly of him. But he had come from a childhood of his own demons and with no foundation of knowledge of coping and managing his emotions became physically abusive. At times we where not able to attend swimming lessons due to the welts on our bodies from the punishment we had been given from not complying or understanding the demands given to us and with a childhood he himself suffered he to suffered onto us. At the age of 11 we where given to our uncle for a weekend for which after him leaving it would be years before we even knew he was alive. But then at the age of 13 our mother came back and took us in. But with no knowledge of how to deal with children emotionally lost and guarded against trust other than with ourselves, she couldn't cope and by the time we where 15, we where left to the streets to fend for ourselves. I ended up staying with an unknown pa******le and had endured things that a young child would never comprehend or know when all the world had given him was disillusion and mistrust that this is what he deserved. Rescued by an aunt and uncle, we went to court and when his lawyer asked " why did you stay with this man after what he was doing to you"? I knew no more, I knew no less. A few years later after finishing work in a bar a local and I took home a couple of woman. After a few hours the front door is broken into and a man has stormed the house and repeatedly stabs my friend. He later dies from bleeding in the lungs. A while later I was caught up with the wrong people, I was arrested under the assumption I had committed a crime. With the thought of a impending prison sentence, I saw no reason to live. I had 3 children to 3 different mothers and I was loved by none of them all due to the emotional walls I had against them. So, I decided life was pointless if the only direction I was going was a cell. So, the night before my court date I swallowed as many prescription drugs I could find. In the morning when I awoke croggy and dazed. Angry and confused I drove to a irrigation store, brought some tubing and found a empty house and parked my car in the garage. When the hose kept melting and I repeatedly couldn't get it to stay in the exhaust pipe I decided to drive off a cliff. On the way to the top I was pulled over by police officers who then took me to the hospital where I spent 2 days in a hyperbaric chamber to remove all carbon waste from my body. After